New Beginnings

I took the plunge and changed my blog. It was called "MS Kinda Sucks." I felt uneasy with the name. I should be more refined, shouldn't I? But MS does kinda suck. It's the truth. I added "kinda" because I didn't want to commit to MS Sucks. After all, each challenge seemed to come with a blessing. Sometimes I had to search high and low, but I always found one. As Multiple Sclerosis continued to progress without my consent, "MS Kinda Sucks" no longer worked. My husband and I joked that I should rename my blog "MS totally blows!" Well, it does! But maybe it's time to use language I wouldn't mind sharing with my grandmother (God rest her soul). 

Lately, I've found myself wanting to put words to my pain and struggle. I hope my sense of humor still seeps in to provide moments of comic relief. I named my blog "Quiet the Sea" because images of the sea kept coming to me. I love kayaking. Back in the day, I navigated some turbulent waters and nothing matched the peace of being on a quiet sea after experiencing a rough ride. My faith is also very important to me and there are several Biblical images and stories involving the sea that have sustained me through my journey with MS.  

I’m not much of a writer but I hope my occasional blog will help others navigating their turbulent waters.  

While blessings abound, I can no longer commit to finding the blessings in every challenge. I'm grateful to be a part of God's beautiful creation, but let's face it, do we really need cockroaches or mosquitos? Sometimes, as I'm wreathing in pain, I think of it like one of those cockroaches. I can't, in that moment, be thankful. But there is hope that the sea will quiet and there will be peace. 

Psalm 107: 28-31

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble,
    and he brought them out of their distress.
He stilled the storm to a whisper;
    the waves of the sea were hushed.
They were glad when it grew calm,
    and he guided them to their desired haven.
Let them give thanks to the Lord for his unfailing love
    and his wonderful deeds of mankind.