Too Brilliant Not To Share

Holy Moly, I've been contemplating a blog for years. I wake up with brilliant thoughts that NEED to be shared and then I get to my computer and forget all of them. Nada. It's part of MS or maybe it's living with too much junk in my head. Then I contemplate the usual, you've heard it, "I don't care who reads it, this will be my online journal."

BMS = Before Multiple Sclerosis

I met my husband playing Ultimate. I watched and observed Ultimate for a long time before playing. I visualized myself catching, throwing and diving. I studied the sport. And FINALLY started playing. I wasn't that good but I sure had fun.

I did the same with mountain biking. I was asked to do my first adventure race in 1999. I was already road cycling and had pretty good endurance. I purchased books and videos and studied the sport and to my surprise, I wasn't bad. Then kayaking. I studied the sport, watched videos, and took classes. And rock climbing. And kids. And let's not forget: PTA president, running a swim team, sitting on numerous boards, having my kids in a gazillion activities, team mom, class mom and more. It's no wonder my body cried "UNCLE!"

PMS = Post Multiple Sclerosis

MS told me I needed a break from ultimate, cycling, running, hiking and climbing. I needed a break from all the things I love! Huh? The things that defined me. Crap! Now what?

One thing BMS and PMS that didn't change is my faith. Sure, I've ranted and raved, questioned and cried out but there's no way I could walk through this valley without Him. 

I'm adjusting to a life BMS to a life PMS. A life of Hyper-doing to a life of Hyper-being. Even if I'm miraculously cured today, life will never be the same. Part of this journey involves letting go. Today, I'm letting go and opening up about this journey.